In Nursing Building or Breaking Your Self Esteem??
Damn, did I put that order in? Did I document that turn? Did I waste that Dilaudid in the pyxis? Walking out the door 13 hours later and on top of being physically exhausted, I am mentally and emotionally drained. I think I needed to be cloned just so I could get a 30-second bathroom break today. I remember leaving work feeling that way, not once, not twice, but many a nights and it sucked like hell!!! I felt unfulfilled and like I cheated my patients to some degree. Some days nursing made me feel like a “bad nurse”.
I would think to myself, what am I doing wrong? I must not be good at time management, I’m too detailed, I’m this, or I’m that……putting the blame on myself, when the fact of the matter was: I was a great nurse who was extremely detailed in the care I provided… Period. But when I looked around and saw others leaving on time, sitting down chatting or texting on their phones while I was doing something with my patient, I doubted myself, my skills and my practice. I loved being a nurse, but I left work many a nights feeling like everything but, an extraordinary nurse even when my patients would thank me a million times over for the care they received.
My goal then, and will always be, is to give all I have to those entrusted to me for clinical care and in business. I found my happy place when I started working in the Cath Lab while traveling and then in the outpatient setting and now in business. These shifts were exactly what I needed every time the opportunity came along.
I love the teaching aspect of nursing and business, the 1:1 engagement and the allotment of time for that in these areas. This allowed me to be efficient and effective, because I was doing what I loved with the necessary resources in an environment that allowed me to thrive.
The same holds true when I started working in business. I was able to be creative, teach, develop and grow my business by my own rules. I thrive better in certain settings and that’s where I’ve planted my feet to stay!!. I feel great about the work I do and this does wonders for my soul. What about you?? It took me a while to get it, but when I did, things got a so much better for me…Take a professional self esteem inventory with these questions:
1. Where do you thrive best?
2. What makes you thrive?
3. Are you doing those things?
4. How do you feel at the end of your work day?
If you’re answers aren’t aligned with what you’re currently doing, then maybe you should consider other options…
This is life as we know it…There are no dress rehearsals…How will your story play out??